Last day of the year

Hi Bloggie,

I just kind of broke down last night. Just cried and cried. I think I have been feeling very stifled and down for sometime. Then after the interview yesterday, I just feel kinda depressed and negative abt everything, just hit a low. Which I am not sure what exactly triggered it. Maybe excessive boredom built up over time. I envy ppl who can do one thing for the whole day eg. watch drama, play computer games, a hobby, whatever. It is actually a kind of peace to be able to do that. It can be negative or positive. Being so easily restless has made me do things that I might not have attempted or learn how to do eg, cooking, baking, learning Japanese, learning driving, learning jewelery etc. So I have been really proud of myself:) It can be a boon or a bane. This trait of mine has only been more obvious to me when I started working. And now it's striking right in front of my face. I can never have nothing to do for no longer then a month.

But anyway, the time of the year has come again.. time to set some new goals... though things are uncertain now without me having a fixed job yet. But it's ok, waiting is always painful. I do know how to counsel myself. Whether it's waiting for a miracle to happen after as series of unfortunate events, the love of your life, the results of something you worked hard for and sometimes even waiting for the bus when you are extremely late - something as small as that. Yes, waiting is indeed painful... but! I will try to treasure the process:)