Mommified

Hi Bloggie,

I have been settling well into the routine of being a mummy.. haha.. getting better at deciphering imm's moods and wants through his whimpers and odd sounds. I have also been cooking more these days! cos I figured I would need to.. sometimes I am really sian of eating outside food.. next time have to cook for kids and hubby.. so might as well use the time to start now:) hee.. but I am kinda lazy still. So far the dishes I have been trying out are french beans, caixin, fish, pork.. all successful! they are more edible than before and I feel a sense of achievement!

I have also been racking my brains over how to have more income in future.. gee, want to have enough and also be able to spend time with kids leh.. hm dunno how the make up sessions will turn out. Have been quite stressed over it. I keep telling myself that as long as I try my best, I will have no regrets! yet, also have the fear of ppls's remarks dampening my confidence. I am glad still to have many opportunities that I can do this, in a way, I always think that if there are opportunities surrounding an event, it meant that God is telling me to go for it!! Similarly, during the time when I was pushing Imm out, I feel that I can do it instead of going for emergency c-sect because the signs were telling me it it possible. So this is how I get on with life with this kind of mentality. Being pushed by events, hehe..

We jus celebrated Bee's bday. It was really kinda weird, going back to old times as though nothing has changed.. hee.. I am also happy in a way. I remembered feeling a sense of loss when she did not join us for grp outings or activities anymore. Hope it stays that way. It feels like on shaky ground sometimes - the friendship; as I dunno when she will get offended abt something I said.. Hmm let's see..

Happy that I am going out later with Di! Now I must try to group all the things that I want to do together.. haha.. cos I can no longer go out at my whim and fancy..

Anyway this is a peaceful time for me, shall treasure it while it lasts:)